The girl who never slept... !!

Yes I am her.... I am the one
Taken loved and thrown away
like an unwanted stray !
Yes I am her ... I am the one !

You may have seen me someday walking lonely on the streets
Unaware of what goes on , who comes forward and who retreats
Yes i am her .. I am the one !

I was barely born
And dad was gone..
Never felt his hand on my head
He never picked me up and put me to bed !

Mom held my hands
Got pretty hair bands
Run all errands
Until he came her way !
He really made her whole world sway !

We were happy so were the skies,
I prayed "let this be- till the sky dies"

Prayers are never answered - they aren't meant to be
For life took away from me - my sweet happy family !

Glasses shattered , Breaths battered , Memories scattered
I picked me up from the hole
Life did take on me a huge heavy toll !

Lonesome roads , empty rooms and a wailing mother
I so wished I were dead and dint see a day another !

I agreed to challenge life
Took the hurdles and braved the strife !

Yes I am Her ... I am the one !
Taken , loved and thrown away
Like an unwanted stray !

Life was tolerable
I was capable
I steered through the waves of emotions
Lived life and enjoyed its off and on commotions !!

He came my way .. Gave me hope
I felt it loosen - The thick fat rope !
The rope that was choking me from birth
The rope that grounded me to the earth !

I saw me smile
He lessened the vile
The trial to be happy started
I halted , I fell but dint end what I had started !

The shadows of past haunting
The pain within daunting
My smile I went on flaunting
Little did i know - The ghosts of past were still hunting !!

Yes I am her ,, I an the one ..
The girl who never slept
whose eyes were forever on the open sky kept !

I still let my tears roll upon my cheek
Tears seem part of me , I know i am sick !

Sickness of mind and body are synonymous to me
I realized patience is the only key !

I am patient , i keep quite
Even tough i know I am right !
But silence is the soul of a big fight ,
A fight i started with my self
I trust me , i need no one for help !

I still keep awake and tremble at nights
I wish i could fly out like colorful kites !
I still cry amidst deep sleep
The pain dammit - It is still so deep !

Yes I am her .. I am the one..
Taken loved & thrown away
Like an unwanted stray !!

Yes I am her .... I am the one...

To My Knight in shinning Armour !!!

His hot breath blew away a messy strand from my face ,
The helpless locks curled up in a frenzied daze
He murmured huskily - " I never knew your eyes were of a light brown Haze '
I seemed to be entangled in his overpowering deep gaze !
I trembled , I smiled , I looked up in style , My voice a whisper , I just cudnt raise !

His caress on the nape of my neck
His light gentle maddening peck
Dammit ! I shivered , Oh what the heck !!
Earth to Soul - Earth to Soul , Mic testing - CHECK !!
He killed the distance with a single step
Breathing collided , skin touched - Fire Alert !

I looked up avoiding his deep piercing stare
Suchha magnetic scent - damn rare !
Times ticking so so fast - Its just Not Fair !
The world runs madly by - Trust me I really don't care !

His soft whisper onto my ears ,
Liquifying instantly all unknown fears
Strength rolling down my cheeks
Taking the form of tears !

Oh ! My Knight in shinning Armour, Hold me tight ,
Make me feel the power of your sight,
Let me drown in the darkness of the darkest night,
Let me not resist you , let me not fight !

Oh ! Knight , embrace my fears and my tears ,
Come Embrace my Lonely soul ,
Caress my heart and kiss my fading smile ,
And make me love you more !

More than the heart can hold
More than love stories ever told
Let a new chapter of love unfold
Let spring bloom in a night so cold !

Let the rain stop midway ,
Let the breeze blow astray ,
Let the moon stop shinning ,
And the scorching sun stop whining !

Dont let go , dont stop holding my hand ,
For I have seen happiness slip off like sand .
Let us be stronger than the strongest of waves
Let the world shut up and slap the ones who rant and rave !

Just stay by me my Knight , in my deep trembling sorrows ,
Promise me we will see brighter new tomorrows ,
Where there shall be no one to separate us from our embrace
where there shall be no darkness - not even a trace !

Promise .. O Promise to hold on till i breathe my last !
Promise me you wont let me fade away , nor slow nor easy nor fast !
Let me close my eyes tonight in your embrace
Let me loose tonight in time and tides race !

Oh ! My Knight in shinning Armour, Hold me tight ,
Make me feel the power of your sight,
Let me drown in the darkness of the darkest night,
Let me not resist you , let me not fight !

THE SONG THUS SUNG !

Sing a song , forget all wrong
Life is all about being stubborn & strong !
A broken dream , a small sigh
Doesn't mean u give up and do not try .
Try to be happy try to smile
Dnt think life n living is futile.
Look around , Open your eyes
Its just bad time - trust me , time flies !
New hopes , new dreams ,
keep them coming - else loneliness screams..
I am rhyming things silly
But i mean each word , really !!
Just tell your mind to love yourself
U don't need nothing - no ones help !

GIRL INTERRUPTED !!

Will this ever stop
The blame games non stop !
'Oh ! it was your fault , not mine !'
'Its your life - go to hell as long as I am fine !'

The love , the passion - why is it amiss ?
Why does the night never end with a goodnight kiss !
Is it time really to ponder over
Am I the one who is not sober ?

Is the desire to get more out of life truly unfair
If not why does the morning give me suchha scare !
The past haunts , the present flaunts
The future taunts ...
Each day , each moment each breath counts !

  Realizationstrikes when most unexpected
The mind , the body seems doubt infected !
Take a deep breath , relax
Focus , focus , focus - dont loose track !
Put your troubles in that godforsaken gunny sack
Bundle worries together , pile them up in a stack !

The world is good , the people are great
Dont take out a notepad to put down a rate
Dont rate people dont blame it on fate
Life is what you make of it - where there is love there is hate !

Sleep over it , wake up fresh
Let the darkness soothe ur mind , a soft loved caress !
Smile to urself , love urself
Trust ur conscience to offer you needed help !

Let darkness be gone , let sunshine fall
Let sorrows and pains seem not so tall
When u need help - Just look around and call
You will find urslelf surrounded with one and all !

 Eti - 'ami'

Ma…ami bhalo achi ..
Ami bhalo achi Ma...
Tumi Chinta koro na ...
Bajey bhabna k gurutto diyo na !

Ma go.. Ami shotti bhalo achi !

Charidekey uttopto poribesh,
Mar-mar kat-kat resh,
Nirapotta j praye shesh..
O Ma, ami...ami shotti bhalo achi..

Shanto bikel oshanto mon
Shudhui bhabi bhor hotey ktokhnn
Ochena mukh kerey neye shukh
Ga chom chomm ,buk thom thom
shanti ki kebol atotayi , ae tuk ?


Porisranto hridoy
Bhoy bhoy hoe

Keu jedu ancholey deye taan
Kore jodi bhalomanushir bhaan...

Ma…ami bhalo achi ..
Ami bhalo achi Ma...
Tumi Chinta koro na ...
Bajey bhabna k gurutto diyo na !

Rateir nirob chayay , gobheer rateir mayay
Keu ki lukiye chokhe chokhey rakhey amaye ?

Aral theke dekhe keu amaye ,
Deye jodi chokh amar pashchattoh jamaye ..
bujhbe ki shey ,
ami j ekla meye
Ache amar onek shopno , onek asha
Bujhbe ki shey amar chokher bhasha !

Bujhbe ki shey ?
bujhbe?

Naki jhanpiye porar shujog ta shey hanshimukhey khunjbe ?

Ma…ami bhalo achi ..
Ami bhalo achi Ma...
Tumi Chinta koro na ...
Bajey bhabna k gurutto diyo na !

O Ma.. ami shotti bhaloi achi ..
Charidekey uttopto poribesh
Mar-mar kat-kat resh
Nirapotta praye shesh..
Maa ami...ami bhalo achi..

Shotti bolchi !!

Shober majhe nijer mati, dhore rekhechi ankrey
Bhoy k boli - aj noy - tui moner konayei thaak re.. !

Ma ... tomar chotto meyeta .. Aj onek boro
Akhon theke chinta bhoy - bndho tumi koro !!

Ma…ami bhalo achi ..
Ami bhalo achi Ma...
Tumi Chinta koro na ...
Bajey bhabna k gurutto diyo na !

Eti -
~AMI ~

The Juvenile speaks.... 

'Leave him - He is a Juvenile
Let him rape , please do not punish him - He is a juvenile'
The court orders spelled something like this ...
Little did we know we gave him pure bliss...

From The Juvenile .. To us !

I guess you all are fools ,
My plan was forever fool proof !
I know the law , i know how it functions
I checked and re-checked at all junctures !

A juvenile cannot be given The Capital Punishment
And i played a good game - and i have no resentment !

She was ordinary , but not my desires
She ignited in me that burnt within like fires !

I wanted to possess every inch of her flesh ,
Hit her , scratch her consume her sweet scent
Damn no , trust me - still no regrets !
Just a lil annoyed by the constant threats !

She screamed ,she kicked , i payed no attention
'Will i satisfy my hunger' that then was my only tension !

Mom thought i was a kid - just growing up
Little did she know , I was a man who was all geared up.
Grown up in thoughts and deeds
Drinking and smoking joints n weeds ...

My friends called me 'champ'
Oh how cool it was to deceive that tramp ...

Delhi sucked out all the pleasure from the triumph a lil later
I dint know there existed people who actually were labelled ' Crime Hater '
How did Delhi stir up this storm ,
Wat was the need to protest in this form ?

I just slept with a chick
Tough i played a lil trick
She was not ready and i touched before she could hide
And then things happened just like the tide !

They say I should be killed and should die
I ask them - what have i done , why ?
Yaah ..OK, I admit I was wrong
I should have been easy and not gone on her so strong !

But i trust my government and know how they are
Will just send me behind bars and think this will scare
But jails are kool , coz i am safe
And much away from the upheaval n rape !

I wont be hung , i wont be stoned , neither will i be shot at sight
All those who prayed so - I am sorry u lost the fight !

I will live and be more stronger
and do deeds later that will be wronger ..

But for now - I am a juvenile - Please don't hurt me !!
Keep sulking coz i shall soon be free...

'THE CAPITAL PUNISHMENT' - or is it ???

The verdict - given
The revenge - Taken !

The news that left the whole nation shaken
When dignity and pride was ripped off & taken
The naked truth made the whole nation awaken
To the horrific truth of a body bare and unhidden !

People rose , anger rose , desperation rose
The whole nations mind revolted and froze
Froze to a verdict - the capital punishment
Only this was believed to be the only nourishment
A nourishment for the bodies that lay lifeless and tortured
Writhed in pain and refused to live despite protests that ruptured !!

People stood up , people rebelled , people fought for her
Pledged that no matter what - Justice they shall seek
As promised they did - left not a single stone unturned
Police , politicians , - they took em all - not one word was uttered !

'Rage' - rage was all that could be seen
Like a snake's venom it all spread within
The protesters , they were only keen
Keen on making those bastard pay for their sickest sin

Some said 'stone 'em' , some said 'shoot 'em' some said hang them till they die
Only their death will let the soul of the deceased be in peace and fly

They said at India Gate - Only Death Sentence for them is apt and deserved
For these sick morons, probably " Death Sentence " should be reserved !

Now...
The verdict - given
The revenge - Taken !

 Is it really 'THE CAPITAL PUNISHMENT ' ??
Will this verdict make the people who ever dared to rape , resent ?
Was this a Warning well sent ?

I truly believe - A slow torture would have been apt
So that every other man forcibly touching a woman would feel trapped
Trapped with fear and scare within
A punishment never imagined never seen !

Did this instill fear in them
Did they loose their sleep , are they still sane ??

Will their hands shake , will their blood curdle
Will they cross the line again without another hurdle ?
Will this make their slimy bloodied hands tremble
Will this capital punishment serve as a Preamble ?

I know not , I believe not , I refuse to see through this
9 months of delayed justice , has put on a crease ...
A crease that cannot be pressed , removed ,will never reduce ,
A crease so powerful so strong event Death cannot deduce !

I'll still say - stone THEM , leave rats on THEM , leave dogs at their bare flesh !
Let them die a slow death , tortured , poked , bitten and scratched
Leave them to the public - let them be thrashed !!!

But Now ... as they all say with a triumphant smile ...
 

The verdict - given
The revenge - Finally Taken !

May peace prevail on Earth's face ,
With this I have no choice but to finally Rest My Case !!